Visiting Orange County

I told my mother last night that I did not want to visit Orange County to see my cousins and she flipped. She had mentioned the her aunt and uncle were old and this maybe the last time we get to see them. She also mentioned that the cousins helped out when I was out of work for so long which they did. I just do not find it enjoyable driving all that distance and then come back the next day. I also do not find it enjoyable seeing all there homes in Laguna Beach. They have all worked hard and deserve these homes but since I want to move back it is hard to see some people doing so well if you know what I mean. To me it is not fun driving around to homes that I could never afford to have. If I was going down there for an interview or going down there to live again then I would enjoy it. It is just hard to go back to some place that I want to live again only to know that I will be driving right back to wonderful Bakersfield.